This is kind of six hours for my me time. The time when I can feel and understand clearly about what I want and what I need. Well, I guess I'm starting to learn deeply about my self. I can imagined clearly about my husband standard. It is a simple thing but very important to me. Most of my 'relationship' ended because I feel insecure and a crazy jealousness. One time if I feel insecure it will make my self down and thinking all about the bad possibilities. And then feeling jealous even turn me into a very bad temper woman. Sometimes I regret that I can't managed my jealous and getting angry to my self.
Until I realized, hope someday I will meet someone who can make me feeling secure in a relationship and having someone that is mature enough not to play with my feeling because he knows I will be very jealous if he's getting closer with another woman. I think if one man can fit that criteria I will be so into him and willing to staying around him. I know the other things are important but that is the most important.
I know Allah has the better plan for me. I never doubt that. Because that is His promises. And I believe it with all my heart.
I know I feel empty, sad, hopeless, and mostly feeling undeserve but I know I can go through it. I will pass by it and I will try to stay strong.
Insya Allah :)
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