Couldn't it getting any worst?

In a very short time, my two ex crushes will get married soon.
I'm just don't brave enough to congratulated them because I feel so deeply sad by knowing that news.
It's so awful to find out that two ppl that you ever been like for a while will get married.

I feel like I'm losing my hope to find my future hubby. I feel like this is the most pathatic situation after I broke up with my ex three year ago. Couldn't it getting any worst? When is it going over? I'm just can't help my self for more.. I lost my confidence, my trust to a man, and losing my hope..

Or..
Do I really deserve it? A punishment for me..