Ketika harus nglamar kerja lagi

This is what happened for the last one week. I couldn't help my self to stop it. I cried every night when I remembered the day which was ruining out my life now. On Friday, May 21st 2016 I've got the email from the HRD for having a meeting with The School director, her, The Principal, and Head of Primary. I was so worried and panic got that email and having a bad feeling about it. And it's proved at 3.20 when I went inside to his office. they only talking in about five minutes explaining that they will not return me back for the next academic year. I was so emotional and crying in front of them. I couldn't think more. there's a picture of my dad, my family that made me confused how did I tell them? I couldn't believe they did it. I didn't do any mistake. My appraisal was good (at least that what my classroom teacher told me) and my punctuation too. It was so sudden until made me a bit out of control. until today I didn't get any reason why.

Saturday, 22nd May 20016

3 a.m in the morning

I woke up and crying again and still couldn't believe what happened. But I NEED TO MOVE ON!!! I need to face the reality since I will become a jobless in about three weeks. So I searching on the internet and borrowed my friend laptop to editing my CV. Sending some random job application to some school. I was sending the email and cried. sending the email and cried, cried, and cried again. I was so surprised when I've got the reply from Germany from one of those job application that I've sent on Saturday. I was so panic and sending some randomly job application without checking the place where I am going to work. LOL!!

Monday, 25th May 2016
8.30 am at school

I couldn't focus to any job in the class. I was too sad to do anything. I was too easy to cried when I saw my friends. and I couldn't help to cry when Rio came to my class and hug me showing his empathy. It was so relieve that I've got the email for having an interview straight away on Tuesday in *******. The interviewed running so well and I hope I will get the job. Tho knowing the salary is making me wanna cry but I think I'll take it just to survive in Jakarta for the next few months. 

Thursday, 26th May 2016
8.30 am at Sekolah Cikal
I was there for having another interview with Cikal School. But I don't think I want to work in Cikal. Because the transportation it's a bit difficult and I need to face super traffic every single day. But still hope that I'll get a job in ****** soon or in a better place.

Friday, 27th May 2016
It was the day for those whose return back to school to sign their contract. I was so jealous to them. Still couldn't face the reality that I WILL NOT BE HERE NEXT YEAR!! I wish that I stay here but I'm not. I was too sad to realized that I will not see them again everyday. I mean my girl friends. We had some good times together but it's not easy to tell them that I will miss them and confused can I have the friends like them in my new places?? Instead of being polite to them I refused to talk or hangout with them. I thought I need to spend my time alone since now and later that I will not be with them again. That was made me so angry. Angry to my self, because I will not having them back together again.