waiting for him

it's three month before my birthday. What do I really wanna have as my birthday present?? a husband.. one word but it has such a big deal to make it true.

dear Allah..what should I need to do? how many days,weeks, or years that I need to wait for him until the day I meet him..

whose him? I don't even know him..it seems like I have no clues whose gonna marry me. I called it 'him' because he's still mysterious man. hahaaa..

well,sometimes I give up..sometimes I really tried hard to make a chance to get in a serious relationship.

but then I realized..Allah wants me to wait for it. alital bit longer than my friends. it's testing my passionate afterall. Sometimes I cried hard, sometimes I'm just entertained my self that I can go enywher that I want cz there's no one whose taking a rule of my life..but it became so pathatic when I got a lot of wedding invitation from my friends.. oh gosshh, it seems like i wanna runaway or hidding somewhere that someone cant see me..

am i at that desperate to have a husband? to be honest, yes i am!!! i dont need to explain why..

then where are 'you'? i'm must be so crazy rite now..i even cant think clearly..